I find my way in the name of God

November  15^th 2012

Yaaa God! Having 5 days full of happiness with him. And now what? I find my heart full of tears ( a lil bit lebay uuups ). Maybe it’s the best way for us. He will be more focus on his study to be your soldier and I will be more focus on my study. And anyway, my parents will not complain to me again about how often I hold my phone at all hahahaha. It’s black and white my love story God. He said that I don’t have to cry. And he promise that next month he will text me ( let us see, if he will fulfill his promise or not hehe ) and he also will always try to contact me on twitter ( and in the fact, he soooooo rarely open his account, really need extra patient for this, fyi first action I do if I open my twitter is checking dm, I really really really hope he reply it) However, it will learn me to be more mature.

Thanks God for every step in my life. I have learn many things by this experience. Thanks I can feeling love and broken today. Love you God and him too :*

November 25^th 21012

Having tons of love for you  :*

November 27^th 2012

Studying hard for the best result at final exam however I still thinking about you haha! Do you thinking about me? Hmmm, I doubt about it

November 29^th 2012

Oooh God! We are so sad because our grandmother had passed away :’((((((( May She can life in the heaven. Sha can meet You, happily ever after. Amen. God bless she always

November 30^th 2012

Last day on November. Thanks November, I had many stories in this month. Sooooo colourful month 

“See what people sees, but think what people doesn’t think!”

December 3^rd 2012

New month has come. Today was sooooo unhappy. I cant do my  test well espesially on pkn test. Uuuh so sad today. I regret why im not study hard, so this is the result I cant do this well. Oooh God, please give me a miracle so I will not do remedial test. Pleaseee God :3. I feel a lil bit happy because, yeah some boys text me first haha, in case im not expect this, but they do this haha. In the morning, my friend told me that my lovely prince replied my dm on twitter, yeaah im so happy of course. Then in the afternoon, A text me, hmmm im so so. After that in the evening, B and my ex  text me too. Hmmm, I don’t feel something different honestly, just feeling flat. I dunno, who  I fall in love with actually, just let it flow. God knows what I need at all. So, I can conclude that there are many people who care about me actually. I thanks to God for giving me these people who love and care to me.

Thanks God for today. Hope I can do my test better. Love you God :*

December 9th 2012
Soooooo saaaad todaaaay!!! He can't fulfill his promise to me. But he replied my dm, but he wasn't text me as his promise. I don't know why. I doubt :'(

 

December 15^th 2012

Finally, exam is over (y) but the bad news is I got two remedial test, it was suck! I know I was not study well, I was  not study hard like when I was in junior high school. I don’t know why, I felt so lazy, and in the end it was full of regretted. I thought it was cause because I’m in love now. I can’t give my full mind on learning, I often thinking about someone there who do not thinking about me maybe. I think it’s so normally right? Haaaaah! I dunno. So confusing today. And maybe I had decided a wrong statement. I accept my friend request to be his gf. I dunno why I can accept this. But actually I still confuse about this. I have a feeling w/ his friend, but he ask me first. He also so kind to me. And I more close to him rather than with his friend ( my lovely prince). I feel, I have decrease feeling for my lovely prince. Why? Soalnya dia tuh cuek bebek banget deh, gak peka, apa2 aku yang nanya, lama-lama males juga kan masa cewe yang sering mulai bahan pembicaraan -__- yaudah deh, udah mulai berkurang rasa sayangnya, walaupun sebenernya masih berharap dia ngerti. Actually, he’s know what I feel. Tapi mungkin, dia nya malu atau gimana ga ngerti juga. Apa dia juga ga kreatif buat bikin topik pembicaraan. Entahlaaaah. Soo, I decided accept his (my friend not my prince) request to be his gf. Fyi, he is my second bf for 16 years old I am alive hehe. But I thanks to God because there is people who love and care about me. I hope he can be a good bf for me. He said “Ego vere amo te”. Thanks God for everything. I hope I am not regret with this decision.

 December 16th 2012
 I love you more A.D.O.P :*** you can believe me :3